On wendsay I had sex with my best guy friend and boyfriend does not know. It was amazing and I have no regrets. I can not put my finger on it but i had to leave right afterwards. I know now that if him and i are left alone we will keep doing that. I really love my boyfriend but it is getting old and I really like my best guy friend alot better. I am just really afraid to end it with my boyfriend and i really do not get along with his familly. well i hope i get some comments to help me words of the wise or something.

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Sinerely love Sarah

 I am stuck and i do not know what and where to turn to. I love the man i am with but he is a very controling person. I have been with him for three years and I do not know what to do. I really love him but I do not know if i can be with him the rest of my life. I feel like i am looking at someone elses' life and i do not feel like my old self any more. I know school is more important to me than any thing else. I am scared to do anything about it. I can not do anything until i get myself a job. Then I think i am going to slowly but surely get all my stuff out of his apartment and then move closer to my school. But I am scared of what will happen and how it will turn out. well write later Love Sarah

The leaves are falling and the weather is getting colder. I wish I had a camera because this is one of my favorite seasons. I still have a content battle every day weather i want to live or not. I had three pizza rolls today and that is it. I am having trouble ignoring my hunger pains. If you want to comment things that help you ignore your hungry pains comment me.